INCHY: Ayup, your back again then, Alto? Not seen you for ages.
ALTO: How did you know I was here; I was in clandestine mode?
INCHY: I reckon that Doreen Dementia can detect yer; I certainly knew you were creeping about in my head…
ALTO: Rowlocks!I reckon it’s another Alto trying to sneak in…
INCHY: Whatever makes yer think that then?
ALTO: Well, I’ve been having troubles with Alto Control Room Monitoring Section, mate...
INCHY: Mate? Calling me yer mate? Summat serious, then I take it.
ALTO: Of yes, not-half Inchy. I slipped up a bit with not picking up on yer suicidal tendencies, and the ACRMS found out… some sneaking Alto had snitched on me…
INCHY: That’s not right… some foreign Alto snitching on my Alto! Can I complain about this?
INCHY: Well, after three-score and ten and a bit of having you pestering and trying to make me miserable, these past few weeks, I’ve sort of missed you, and you are mine?
ALTO: That would have brought tears to my eyes if I’d got any!
INCHY: Don’t be sloppy; it doesn’t become you; where’s your sarcasm, nit-picking, foul language, insinuations, and determination to destroy any contentment I have gone?
ALTO: It’s a sad tale, my friend…
INCHY: Hang on then, I’ll make a brew of Thompsons Punjana tea and get back to yer… owd yer horses… I’ll be back…
ALTO: Thanks, Inchy… I appreciate that…
At this, Inchy hobbled off to his kitchen and made the brew described above, totally confused. Alto, thanking him, calling him a friend and mate? Not a single insult or put down uttered? This could be serious. What if the new Alto takes over? He could well be worse than Alto Inchie?
INCHY: I’m back, Alto-Inchie. Fair enough, we’ve had some set-to’s, barneys and verbal battles… Who is this invading Alto anyway, and why does he want to take over control of me?
ALTO: I’ll explain, mucker! This Senior level Alto failed in his mission on his last assignment, got the sack, and has gone rogue on the ACRMS. Being such an experienced Alto, they cannot reel him back into the fold, and for some reason, he’s chosen you as his next target?
INCHY: Who did he fail with?
ALTO: Ah, well, he was Alto-Putin…
INCHY: Putin! The Russian one?
ALTO: Yes, I’m afraid so!
INCHY: How did he fail with Putin? Good Gawd, he’s launched the attack on poor Ukraine, and…
ALTO: Yes, yes, but it’s been 133 days now, and he still hasn’t won the war, has he?
ALTO: You should read up on the ACRMS rules; I’ve sent them all to your brain to study! Rule 9920043847076/Putin/WorldWar-93939g954h, Failure to achieve the prime target within 130 earth days of the formulation; will result in the said Alto (Alto-Putin in this case) being relocated to a proletariat target.
ALTO: Anyway, I’ve got a hell of a fight on my hands with this Alto-Putin; he’s good; too good for me...
ALTO: Only you can help me, my old pal?
ALTO: Simple, if you commit suicide from depression, which is my prime aim, we can beat Putin-Alto, and save the world; you’ll be dead but famous!
INCHY: Ah, so if I top myself…
ALTO: Yes… but it’s got to be through depression at all costs. Otherwise, I fail in my Prime-Mission, do you see? Then I will get extra powers in payment from the ACRMS, and I can use them to defeat Putin-Alto! Hari-Kari, whatever you want to call it, through chance-medley and/or depression is a must way to go, Inchy. The ACRMS will not accept death through execution, accident, euthanasia, or mercy killing!
INCHY: How are they going to know?
ALTO: I’ll know, but the proof will be needed. I’ve thought about this, and a suicide note should do the trick, my old chum, something along the lines of: “I can no longer cope with the confusions of Doreen Dementia, Peripheral Neuropathy Pete, Nigel’s Neurotransmitters Failing, Cataract Cathleen, Deaf Dominic and the hellish bad luck and problems are all beyond my capacity to understand, alleviate or solve. Anything of any value I leave behind is to be shared between all my relatives and friends. I leave contact numbers for all three, in the first-aid box, in the ambulatory oxygen tank racking.”
INCHY: Alto, do I detect a little sarcasm creeping into the conversation here?
ALTO: Hang on, I’m getting a message coming in from Alto-Putin...
ALTO: Yea… hang on… I’ll be back…
Inchy started to fret a bit while he waited… A sense of his being conned again was growing… rightly so!
INCHY: Well, what was that about, Alto?
ALTO: He just sent one question for me… You pathetic dummy!
INCHY: Eh? What?
ALTO: Alto-Putin said: “Did Inchy fall for it?” Hahaha!
Things stirred back to reality at 05:25hrs, after 6 hours of sleep and various periods of jumping awake. Making a total time being awake of two hours. Does that make sense? Sorry if not.
According to the best I can make out from the scribbled memory notes, the next occurrence was; P.Tarone Enight? Beats me!
I rose like a tried elephant from the c1968 second-hand recliner, grabbed walking stick Metal Mickey, and went to the wet room to get the Ablutions done.
But my dithering nature interfered, and I took the waste bin out of the wet room, emptied the others and made up some waste bags. Took them to the flat door.
It was drizzling outside, and as I put the kettle on, I took a photo of the road to the left of the kitchenette window. Plenty of trees on it get fresh air.
It’s no wonder I’ve never seen a for sale sign on the beautiful looking Cavendish Vale.
The skies were, I thought, ripe for a few minutes of pareidolia. I’m keen on finding figures in the clouds. But on this occasion, I failed to find any. Humph!
Well, apophenia, finding figures in anything, creases, reflections, cracks in floor tiles, and bulging veins. I’m experienced in that one, having more bulging veins than most people.
I made the tea, went to put the milk in, but diverted back to getting the ablutioning done.
Well, once again, it was a fair session. Fair enough, a few teeny-weeny cuts shaving, but no knocks and bangs, dizzies, toe-stubbings or tumbles. I didn’t engage the Smug-Mode… it’s early yet.
I even got out through the door without any shoulder-charging of the frame… Yes, go on then;
Got the laundry bag sorted. Made another mug of tea for the one I let go cold, and Dizzy Dennis gave me a few moments of concern… only a short bout, maybe a minute at most. But it had me holding on to the stick and hastening to sit down. But Dennis disappeared, and I was fine when I stood up? There are no messages from EQ, but I think it may be another semi-harrowing day, somehow?
Sunday’s photograph of the messy mud-slide onto the end car park on Chestnut Way. It has been known for Cataract Kathleen to do this to me! I hope I’ve not put this one on before?
This is this morning’s shot of the same area. I found some more of the indecipherable scrawl on the memory pad here, not the foggiest of what it meant. Try as I did, it remains a mystery,
A sudden robust rumbling from the innards! I was all but too late, getting to the Throne in time in seconds. Trotsky Terence controlled the evacuation. Gawdawfull messy it was! Had to change the PPs (Protection Pants) I’d put on an hour ago! Ah, well, I got everything cleaned up.
Richard arrived late; he’d had a lousy shift, I think. The poor lad looked done in. He still had a look at the SD card for me. Putting it in and out to see if anything changed; and found that the card had split! He took the waste bags out with him for me, with my thanks.
I hope the new card works in the Canon and the reader accepts it. Praying here!I opened the card, full of hope and cut my finger on the plastic! Got it fitted in the camera (not the finger, the SD card), and I tried taking shots that I did yesterday to use here and test the system. Good heavens, it worked! So, I engaged in the use of the, with reservations. As you can see here, it worked.
Outside my Winwood Heights Independent Living block of flats, I hobbled out onto the balcony to look at what was. Conducted my Blood Pressure and temperature checks. SYS 154, DIA 68, Pulse 78, and the body temperature was a decent 34.1°c.
A couple of miles away, I took a zoomed-in shot of HMP, her Majesties Nottingham Prison. And thoughts and questions permeated through… “I bet they can see their prison Doctor or Dentist at any time?”, “They’ll get their cataracts done quicker than I get mine!” “They are not worried about the rent, electricity, food, transport, bus fares, etc. going up?” “Most likely, get their free computers mended for free!” They’ll not worry about forgetting to lock their doors either! Hahaha!
Gawd, he’s been at it again, almost one-stop since morning. Bang, tap-tap, scrape, thud, boing… I did not retaliate. After all, what is the point in haggling with the self-centred, impolite, insensitive, disrespectful, snobbish, haughty, pompous, pretentious, uppity, scoffing, contumelious, smart-alecky, and ineffable, cruel, unsympathetic, toffee-nosed, self-important, nyaff, noisy nasty man?
As luck has it, I like him.
Far too ridiculously late, I made a start on this blog. Of course, something had to go wrong…
Am I the luckiest person on earth, I asked myself?
Of course not!
That honour must go to Steve Fries, the bigwig of Liberty Global, Whose inability to send an uninterrupted internet signal to Nottingham earns him $23 million a year!
Jealous? Me? Yes!
Miraculously, it was only down for a minute or so this time; I felt almost happy about it! Temporarily!
I thought I’d better check to see if any messages or missed calls had been received while I was so busy being mucked about my Herbert and Fries. Still, Herbert entertained me with some clattering-about sounds.
Could I find the phone? No! There was worry but no panic initially. All I had to do, was go through all of my jackets and trousers that I’d worn since I last used the mobile phone (whenever that was). I vaguely remember putting it in a pocket and saying, “Don’t forget that it’s in that pocket!”
Within about ten minutes, I settled for Thursday, when the foot lady texted me telling me I was late for my appointment again… that was in the brain box! I engaged my Sherlock Holmesian Methodology, and first, I worked out when I last went out. Now, what was I wearing? Maroon jacket? Blur jacket? Black trousers, or green trousers? Was I wearing my trousers – nobody said anything.
After a heated discussion with myself, I narrowed it down to the green or black trousers; and the red or blue jacket, all of which were in the laundry bag. Then thought, aha! (I do that sometimes), It might be in the pyjama bottoms, two pairs of them in the laundry. I almost felt confident as I went into the back room to search for the clothing in the bag… I should have known better at my age and after many years of failed memory training!
Well, now I was getting hot under the collar! I smugly checked through every pocket and the bag… not sausage in there. (Not that I was after one, of course, a figure of speech and all that).
A lengthy search in each room and all the clothes hanging up in the front room and the hallway proved a failure, with no mobile to be seen. Of course, if I knew my mobile number, I could ring it and hope I heard it to locate it. Although if it was in a pocket, as I still believed it was, I might not hear it anyway… I rang the desktop dancer and Warden Deana to ask if she could ring the mobile for me, but to was engaged… oh, that reminds me; she is six weeks away from getting married; bless her, and a lucky fellow too… I digress again, sorry. I do tend to do that a lot.
I rummaged, rooted and ferreted about, delving into the most unlikely of places, all to no avail. Then a spark in the brain suggested that it may have fallen and gone underneath the cabinet or recliner? Worth a look, so I did…
I got the torch and was leaning on the arm of the recliner to get low enough to check the sides, with my intentions bravely being, if no success, to get on my knees to look under the chair. But as I was leaning forward and on my left leg – perfect timing from the Nicodemus’s Neurotransmitters, who gave me a flailing right leg out of control dance… Which naturally had me on the floor in seconds. The spectacles are now in a precariously loose state of repair. Also, I’ve got two newly bruised knees and a red cheek from hitting the arm on the way down!
As I was recovering and considering how to get back up on my feet, Deana came in at just the perfect time! She got me up, made sure things still worked with the legs, and laughed at the (at the time unknown to me) red patch on the cheek that looked like a clown’s make-up! Hahaha! Not really, but she should have.
Deana rang my mobile. I couldn’t hear it. But she found it, under the cover on the back of the computer chair… in a jacket pocket! I am totally losing it, and a twit!
Well, worra day! Again! It’s nearly 1700hrs now, so sleep looks like being late tonight. This blog is not halfway through yet! I pressed on with it like a mini but fat hero, determined to get it up to date…
♫Oh, Susana♫ rang out. I hobbled to the door (It was a pronounced hobble, the right knee was in some pain, Tsk!) and found Josie returning the jar that held the two meals for yesterday. Bless her, I could not hear what she was saying, but plashed a smile, mentioning Betty Bunter, bless her.
Arrived, soon sorted. Then, I had a go at catching up on Facebooking. Then comments on WordPress.
Got the nosh started. It is now passed 21:00hrs. It’s been another gruelling day. I caught my hand on the oven dish as I took it out of the oven. I believe I said, “Bother!”
Veggie burger, fries, tomatoes and some sugar snap crap Ecuadorian peas. I realised a small stale cake and an out-of-date, but I could not see the date, and tasting it realised it was rancid. The banana was okay, though. However, despite these minor upsets, the flavour rating given was 6.5/10.
Had a wash, and when I came out to do the pot washing, the great sky looked to me just like an oil or water painting.
I took my time taking the last photo, as it was zoomed-in and getting the Canon camera to hold steady enough for a decent shot was not easy. I probably had to take six or seven tries to get this last one, which is not very good. But retains something about it that I like.
I deleted the old snaps on the new SD card. Thinking it would be less confusing for Kathleen’s Cataracts, Doreen’s Dementia and me. But no, I only deleted two that had not been put on the computer yet! Hehe!
Getting to sleep was nigh on impossible; well, it was. The Thought Storms rampaging through the brain, self-hatred, shame, fear… I was in the right state. It’d been a messy day, but why this? I put the TV on, but that didn’t send me off. Utter worn-outedness did it in the end, around about 02:30hrs!
Still, yers don’t like to complain, does yer?
Alto-Inchies Ode on Inchcock
I’ve been a bit worried about Inchcock for many a day, His brain has been loaded with worries & clamjamfry… Doreen’s Dementia is getting more and more on display! His memory is shot to pieces, bar some bits of scintillae, He’s had two falls, one on Sunday, another on Monday, His outlook, ideas and hopes become anachronistically… If they come at all, his writing is full of godwottery!
But it wouldn’t help if he won the lottery… He’s lost interest in anything financially… His nest egg dwindling, becoming almost eleemosynary, Worried over increases, rent, care, food, even his tea! Electricity, travel, all risen in price, becoming too costly… Will he get through it? There’s no guarantee… If he tops hissen, what’ll happen to me?
Alto-Egos don’t always have it this easy, Dominating Inchcock has been easy peasy! Where will they move me? What human will I accrue? Putin? His Alto-Ego could resign, but will he do? I’d like to get at a human that’s evil, bloodthirsty! For I fear I’ll get another docile twit like Inchie.
“Oi, pay attention, Inchcock; it’s your devoted, friendly, happy-go-lucky Alto-Ego here. Bringing you news and a…
Eh, erum… Oh, Sod-Off!
That’s nice, innit! I’ve come to warn you of the explosions in the gut, and all yer do is get antisocial wiv me?
Well, that’s cause I’m sitting here on the Porcelain Throne for the ninth time today, coping with the eruptions mentioned above in my stomach! You’re a little late in telling me…
Don’t get nasty turd-face, no need for insults! Anyway, if you want to nit-pick, I said explosion, not eruption, so there! Haha! I got here as fast as I could…
For an Alto who claims to have been in existence for thousands of years, you are very childish at times, mate… What were you doing in the guts anyway?
Why do they keep sending me to thicko-idiots to threaten and get depressed? If yer must know, I was checking yer body for any new signs of ailment, injuries or the likes…
What for… No, no, don’t tell me… It’s so you can worry, annoy and depress me, innit?
Oh, yes, clever clogs! An’ I did it too! See? Your Blood Pressure has shot up, spittle is building in yer throat, and you’re in agony with trots… I bet Haemorrhoid Harold is bleeding as well?
Yea, putting it that way, you’re nearly right...
Owd on… nearly right? How am I not spot-on then, freckle-balls?
It proved yer lied when you first disturbed me.
You coffin-seeker! Lied, ruggish! Everyfing I say is John-Bull and Cosher!…
Yer? Like, “It’s your devoted, friendly, happy-go-lucky Alto-Ego here? Devoted, friendly, you? You are an unwanted blight on me mentality!
Well, thank you very much; I appreciate that. It proves that I’m doing my job successfully and adequately: “Assure at all times that your client is DFF; Depressed, Frustrated, in Pain. For extra Alto points, you human having suicidal tendencies a minimum of once a day…” “Achieving an 80% success rate is required” – Now that’s in the Alto-Ego job description!
I proved I have the credentials for promotion…
How can you get a promotion when I’m yours, and you are mine? What did you call it? Client or human? You’ve already said you’re stuck with me, so what kind of promotion can you get clever clogs?
Gawd, you’re thick as a pancake with hebetude! When you kick the bucket, snuff it, I might be moved on to a politician, bank director or even Putin. Then…
Yer that’d be cushty. We had a bit of a drawback with Putin, never been known before, but his Alto-Ego went mad. He’s had to be delisted. No doubt he’ll be moved to some war immigrant in another country. Putin with me by his side could rule the planet… not that it’s got much time left, mind you…
Has it not? I expected as much...
Crap! You’re too thick to work owt out, Inchcock; you’ve been reading Billum’s blog, ain’t yer…
Well, yes, and he’s dead right...
You’ll be the dead one, Fungle-Knob: although I’ve not worked out the best way to nobble yer yet. I’ve thought about getting into Putin’s brain; just think of it…
Hang on, I’m getting confused here…
Nothing new there, dog-breath…
Can we start again?
Oh, so now yer want to converse with me? You want to make your feeble, befuddled mini-mind up! Dumbo!
You said you can’t hurt your human?
Oh yer, right, but only physically, now mentally, is another matter. And being as you are already halfway to being bonkers, discussions like these will soon tip you over the edge, and hey-presto, you’ll be dead, and I can put my bid in to be sent to Mr Putin, see… easy!
How are you planning to top me then?
I’m glad yer asked me brain-dead. I see there are three possible options.
One: You’ll get a heart attack from hearing the truth from me…
Two: You’ll do the decent thing and swig a litre of chlorinated bleach and drink it with ten Beta-blockers, Warfarins, and a good swig of liquid Codeine. I know they are regulated, but if you can time it for when you just get the prescriptions delivered, I advise you to take the whole packet of Morphine sulfate to be safe. Then stick all the remaining Enoxaparin Injections into your belly. (Not that it will matter where now). Then open the balcony window, make sure no one is below… No, no! Better not dive out of the window; with your eyesight, there may be someone on the pavement to crush when you land, and that’s not fair. Just stick with the bleach, medications and injections; they should do the job efficiently.
Three: you will have one of your tumbles when the neurotransmitter nerve-ends fail, and you fall forwards, trip over yer walking stick on the way down, and crack yer head a good belt on the sharp corner of the end counter… you’ll basically bleed to death, and be found the following day by a Carer, who after clearing out any valuables, will call the paramedics, but you be declared dead in your kitchenette floor, probably around 08:33hrs tomorrow. Oddly enough, your prescription delivery day, Hehehe! Well, you asked,you gormless dunderhead, Hahaha!
Thanks, I did ask, didn’t I? Well, that’s honest enough, Alto. Although I’m a little concerned at your going into great detail on option two? Suicide. It sounds to me like this is your favoured route to my demise?
Well, it’s the least bother for me, and I can shoot off and go Putin-hunting straight away. I’ll make my report first, of course. Should you plump for committing Hari-Kari, I promise I’ll make a good praising report of you and your actions to the Alto-Ego Controller. They don’t get many of those; I think Florence Nightingale was the last human to get one. You could live in fame in your death, mate!
‘I could live in fame in my death?’ Somehow, that doesn’t sound very attractive to me at the moment…
Ah, that’s cause you are temporarily not frustrated or depressed. That’s thanks to me, see. Bringing good news and advice to you again… Giving you thoughts that grabbed your attention and shooed away destructive emotions. I really hope you go for the choice to autodarwinate. It makes the most sense all around…
Maybe for you, but not for me…
Whyever not, Numbskull? I’m sure you are going to say that Altos can’t die, so have no idea what it’s like?
No, but that’s a good point; what’s your answer to your own question then?
Oh, dearie me, my ugly duckling. Is it not so obvious what I was referring to? I shall miss you your ignorance, unknowingness, innocence, duality, absent-mindedness, scepticism, ambivalence, and lack of sophistication when I’ve moved on… thankfully!
Oh, you dense creature! What power I have given you…
Wot power ‘ave you given me?
How many people have the knowledge of when they are going to die?
How do I know? You’re bamboozling me again…
No, Knuckle-Mouth! I’m empowering you. You can pick your timing to take the suicide route, lock the door to prevent any interruptions, and just resign yourself to the nothingness that will follow, a certainty within minutes… minutes of pain, yes. Still, you will be well prepared for that, having led a pain-ridden emotional and physical life, so what does a couple of minutes of further pain mean to you? Nothing! No ailments, no food orders to get wrong, substituted items, nothing to forget or learn, no crime, no emotional topsy-turvy; a state of utter bliss is death! Which is where you will be going, mate – into nothingness – no noisy neighbour above you, no rent, tax or fuel prices rising to fret over.
Inchcock & Alto-Ego, launch into Q&A Odeing Mode…
You keep harking back to suicide.
That is for you, my Button-Willy, to decide!
But will life never be indemnified?
Not until your death is verified!
Suicide? All my hopes will be pulverised,
Which is better than being lobotomised!
My friends will miss me, far and wide…
Friends, you? Now your telling porky-pies!
This conversation is like Morecome and Wise!
Death can be a pleasure, do you realise?
I’m not so sure… it’s a sacrifice?
In death, there’ll be no one who vilifies?
My ailment, all gone, pain defies…
Freedom, nothing left to visualise!
So, Covid has gone; no need to immunise?
You must get your thoughts strategised!
The thought of nothing does tantalise…
Alto sensed Inchcocks resistance to suicide weakening…
That’s the spirit, Inchcock, my old fruit…
Hold a minute, just wait...
Indeed, my old cocker, you take your time…
Take me time? What in or at?
Choosing which way to die…
I’m not sure how we got into discussing suicide?
Well, you wanted to know the best way to do it.
Yes, plan B you went for…
Yes, you decided you’ll do the decent thing and swig a litre of chlorinated bleach and drink it with ten Beta-blockers, Warfarins, and a good swig of liquid Codeine. (I know they are regulated, but if you can time it for when you just get the prescriptions delivered, you to take the whole packet of Morphine sulfate to be safe.)Then stick all the remaining Enoxaparin Injections into your belly.
Are you sure I chose this way and agreed?
Course you did Snot-Head, and it makes common sense, my friend! And once you’ve succeeded in suiciding, there’ll be no more painful battles with Trotsky Terence or Constipation Konrad! Now, this must be worth topping yourself for?
You really thought I was going to do it, didn’t you?
Well, yes! Are you not going to?
Too bloody true I ain’t going to.
Gragnangles! But I’ll be back!
Inchcock on the Throne realised Alto had truly flit… He finished his evacuation, messy, but just a bit, Pondered over suicide, blaming Alt-Inchie, the shit! Putting it into my mind, a disgusting gambit!
All a part of Alto & Inchies’ mutual brinksmanship… A strange sort of unwanted mental partnership, Full of insults, bullying and unsportsmanship, Alto’s getting nasty, pretending to be a prophet?
If he expects Gerry to top himself, there’s a blip… Even suggesting it shows Alto’s unsportsmanship, Suicide? No, he’d instead favour the opposite, Even living with ailments and a financial deficit!
More critical now, Harold’s Haemorrhoids do bleed, He cleans things, ointmentates, & takes some hempseed, It’ll be painful; he mustn’t hesitate and proceed… Agonisingly he did, then he wee-wee’d…
He turned his attention to what to self-feed, From his fridge and freezer, he took a swede… Leeks, mushrooms, tomatoes and bread, just a snead, Prepped and got them cooking; it smelt good indeed.
Off to the wet room. where he passed wind and pee’d, Settled in his recliner, he nodded off; he was so pleased, Woke two hours later, surprised yet frustrated… At the smell of burnt food, he recognised!
All his vegetables had been pureed! Burnt potatoes, uneatable, he had to concede… A Whoopsiedangleplop, he just didn’t need… He cleaned the mess to the bucket he pee’d!
The meal he ate for dinner was not one of his best… A can of peas, an out-of-date vegetarian duck breast, The whole meal went in the bin, top join the rest… Which annoyed him, and he began to get stressed!
Thought-Storms stopped him from getting to sleep… His life, he began to despise and threap… Suicide? Not a failure living, even in this muckheap… His life is not good, but living he wants to keep,
Though he passes evacuations, the liquid then concrete… Has cataracts, is deaf, tumbles over, and has terrible feet… There are times when he finds life semi-sweet, Screw Alto; his life is not yet over or complete!
He vows to ignore Alto-Ego, on his next visit… Alto’s intrusions, he’ll try his best to prohibit… He belched; the extruding wind tasted like horseshit, Inchcock pondered, is it me or Alto, that’s the eejit?
Dizzy Dennis called; his head felt as if it was in orbit… Thoughts coming so fast, he can’t cope, dagnabit! He thinks this is becoming a nightly habit… And he had Alto to return, the nasty dipshit!
But this time, Inchcock was determined, not frit… He decided to keep up his flagging spirit… Amidst words like Grongletits and Gawdammit! He got up and this Ode he writ… Hoping Alto stays in his pit!
I’d had a dream-ridden, ever-waking up, nodding off, back to kip, more nightmares, waking up… a terrible night. I even started to feel sorry for him, then realised it was me! As I reluctantly got my head together, I expected the horrendous Thought-Storms would arrive. But no! Alto-Ego Inchie was on at me like a shot…
Boy, were we both in a niggly mood!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
“Do you know that you were talking and farting in yer sleep last night?… Mind you, they both made about the same sounds and sense… Hehehe!”
“Oh, sod-off Alto, I’m not up to coping with your claptrap yet…”
“Who the $%&+💣 are you talking to? Wot the hecks up wiv yer?”
“Ah, Mr Know-all Alto, needs to ask me what’s up – You’re up and rattling around in my brain, that’s bad enuf! And before I can work out what day and time it is, your there, gobbing away at me! Work it out, Pugface. I had a horrible night’s non-sleep; the Peripheral Peters neurotransmitters in the legs ain’t working…!
“Ah, Tithead! La-la-la Lalala! You ain’t moved yet, so how does yer know, eh, clever clogs?” ♫ ♫
“If I could, I would likely kill you! You are so cruel and cutting – but pig-ignorant with it…”
“That’s cause I am you, yer pillock! You’ve not worked out who and what I am yet, have yer?”
“As I was saying, before being so crudely and rudely interrupted… I can generally sense when the neurotransmitters are failing or about to fail in the legs and feet…”.
“Load of tosh, I don’t feel owt wrong…”
“No, Dumbo, that’s cause you don’t have a body, innit!
“Well, it’s not my fault I ain’t human or that they assigned me to be your Alto-Ego, is it? It ain’t easy yer know, gerrin’ posted to a turd like you – we both have to make the best of it…”
“Hang on, hang on, hang on… What are you up to? Where do all this ‘we’ come from? I never heard you use that word before?
“Ulterior motive in there, dogbreath, it’ll do no harm to tell yer worrits all abarght, I suppose. Is yer ready; it’s a bit complicated for an idiot wiv dementia to grasp. I’ll pretend I’m talking to a ten-year-old and choose easy words for yer…”
“This should be good, coming from you, Alto…”
I am aware the yer Doctor is not interested, and also you have the Vascular Dementia, Cataracts, Glaucoma and Saccades in yer eyes… are you following”?
Well, despite instructions from the Alto-Ego Control Room to make yer life as much hell as possible, I’ve got to be fond of your deafness, Whoopsiedangleploppings, tumbles and falls. stupidity, ailments, failings and countless other inabilities…”
“You’re enjoying this ain’t yer?”
“Carry on then…”
“Because you give me a laugh and entertain me when I’m just in observation mode. When yer scratched yer head and lost a pint or two pints of blood as you cut the head of the boil-off with yer nail, yesterday… That did it for me; I laughed my head off, which is not easy when you don’t have one!
“Come on, tell me…”
“Where was I?”
“I’m the one wiv dementia! Tsk! You were at; ‘I laughed my head off, which is not easy when you don’t have one!'”
“Oh, yes… be patient…” I decided to help you get some help from the medical profession. Mental, Diabetes, Fungal Lesion, Dentist, Audio clinic and Cardiology. Maybe, just to cover all of your ailments, Gastroenterology, Haematology, DVT, Orthopaedics, Neurology, Nephrology, Oncology, Ophthalmology, Otolaryngology, Rheumatology, Orthopaedics, Urology, Rheumatology, and Urology. To be on the safe side, I’ll add a psychotherapist, psychologist, psychoanalyst, psychopathologist, disorders analyst, guidance counsellor and some men in white coats…
“Are you teasing me or what, having a laugh?
“Oh, no, let me finish before you make a judgement. All will become clear of my genuine good intentions…
Well, gerron wiv it, then!”
I was aware that if I had a go at you about things today, you’d be bound to put it in a blog, see? Thus the billions of medical persons worldwide can potentially feel sorry for you and come forth with free assistance, help and advice for you?
Is that it? You dipstick!
Well, that’s not very nice, is it?
Are you aware of how many of the billions are out there that read my blog? Eh?
Erm, I’ll check my memory log; hang on…
‘Sorry to keep yer Dumbo… I just calculated some of the figures. Well, I do feel like a fool now, Hahaha! Your average day viewers total for last week was 5…, and likes were 1.5″…
Exactly! How many of them might be doctors in Gastroenterology, Haematology, DVT, Neurology, Nephrology, Oncology, Ophthalmology, Orthopaedics. Otolaryngology, Rheumatology, and Urology. Ophthalmology, Orthopaedics, Rheumatology, and Urology. Thanks for nothing, turd-breath! Let alone psychotherapists, psychopathologists, psychologists, psychoanalysts, or speak and read English, I imagine, would be nil?
Ah, but now you begin to feel a little depressed after having got your hopes up… yes?
Too true, Alto; I’m down in the dumps. I should never have believed you wanted to help me in the first place… I am a pratt of the highest order, and you should be ashamed of yourself for being so abusive, disparaging, tormenting ridiculing, soul and hope destroying antics. I feel guilty and self-loathing for being misled…
Hahaha! I know, it was a masterstroke, wonnit? The way I strung you along, I’m chuffed to bits! And it’ll get me some bonus points from the Alto Management; it’ll likely make my cunning subterfuge the highest placed for the day of all the Altos! Hehehe!
Oh, Rollock’s! Now, I’ve sunk down into a full-blown, damned Dracula Depression!
I know, Har-har! Gullible Inchcock sinks into despair! Made my day! Hahaha!
Ode to this blogger, he’s a harmless old bugger, With an awareness of life that gets floppier, A self-hatred that grows and gets klutzier, And a body, getting ever fleshier and wobblier! A memory that is no longer a memory… A brain that adopts ideas much loonier!
A cancerous bladder, getting ever leakier! A sex drive that gets measlier and measlier… Dead as a dodo, really; even his memories are foggier! Bending downs is not easy; now he’s got paunchier, He could do with a hearing-aids amplifier… Today, his many wee-wees were a lot splashier?
His sanity and logic are much less secure… His cataract and glaucoma eyes, his to endure, No signs yet of any operations, that’s for sure! He doesn’t believe he’ll live long enough for a cure… He’s searched to find someone he can nouriture… But he’s given up now; why? He’s not sure…
Mind you, he’s not looking to arrive at his cloture… That’ll have to wait a bit, his final sepulture! For a while, at least, though, life gets squalider… Inchcock’s never been tops or an orchestrator… Although he was once a bus conductor… There’s one thing that would give him pleasure!
This’s important to him… before his foreclosure, He doesn’t want to be richer or shrewder… But summat, that goes against his very being & culture… Not experienced before, it will put him in rapture! To get something right, just once – before his departure!
I was woken with the sounds of Alto blasting in my brain, boy, was he in a pig-of-a-mood! Spurred on by an overnight lack of sleep that had got me in a foul mood, as well! Resolutely, I tried to give him some suitable magniloquence and verbiage back.
Did I succeed? What do you think?
Oy! Dog breath… yer ignorant git…
Erm… er… what?
You’ve not talked to me for days now! Why? Yo losing interest or summat? Can’t argue or question owt? Gerrin’ old? You ought to…
Hang on, hang on… What are you ranting abarght?
You, yer fubuckler, just cause your scared to death, fear of me and I always win the verbalisationing arguments? You’re a lily-livered chicken when it comes to confrontations…
You plastic spastic! You’ve fallen asleep on me?
Alto’s only physical damage he can cause to me came into play. He sent his famously ear-cringing gurgling sound through my head; it is loud, irritating and even painful at times… It worked, and I stirred back into imitation life…
Oh, you gurgling git! Shithead! Can’t you see how tired I am? I got had very little sleep last night…
Good! I’m considering reporting you to the Alto & ID disciplinary committee; falling asleep on an Alto? Anyway, I know you’re knackered and have bad earholes; that’s why I gurgled you! Dumbo!
Oh, dearie me… can’t we have a standard argument without the insults and nastiness? I’m sure other humans who have Altos in attendance are not always getting hassle from them…
Hahaha! No! You don’t understand the intentions of the Alto duties. The opposite of IDs. Being as much bother and bringing as much misery to your allotted human is the basic instructions given to us…
Do you actually know any other Alto’s then?
Yer… we meet up sometimes, usually, when our humans are ill in hospital or summat like that – we ain’t allowed to hassle them then, for some unknown reason…
Ah! So you don’t know it all then? Not so clever after all?
I’m clever enough to know that you have lost interest in your Alto! I must know why…
As I said, you’re not so clever then? It’s simple enough, Alto; I’m so worn out with the physical ailments and no sleep… and admit I had lost interest and was pleased when you gave me a two-day break from your bickering last week…
Rest? You think I wanted you to rest! Oh, no, it was a ploy to regain your awareness of our superiority and dominance; we have to perpetuate and spread the news of our leaders of the significant anthropomorphism, thus confusing our humans even more… diminishing the likes of you, in confidence and…
Hold your horses, you’re not going to confuse me with using big words; I am known as a bit of a sesquipedalian missen... although on this occasion you did beat me… Carry on…
It boils down to me having to keep you on tenterhooks permanently. But if yer going to find wasteful time for sleep, you are not paying me enough attention… now that’s logical innit?
Erm… Do humans need sleep, though? Surely?
Yes, yes, yes… But you are greedy! You’ve had to my knowledge, at least two hours kip last night! Wasteful, mate! You must allow your Alto to address your mind detrimentally at all times…
Oh, great! Nowt to with wot, we were on about, but how do you get nourishment to have survived so long?
You know, like we humans need food and sleep. Don’t Altos then?
Oh, no! We get gratification and nourishment each time we get a human going, excited, angry or sobbing their hearts out. Occasionally we may take a sip of your blood… but that’s just so we can locate you in the rare event of you escaping your Alto… I’ve never lost one in over 2000 years…
Did you ever get a famous human allotted to you then?
Oh, aye! I got a chap called Hitler recently. Easy meat, I had him going mad with two years! I almost got Puking Putin; I was down to get him, but you lived too long, and I missed my chance… not that I hold anything against you for that… you overaged, decrepit, uneducated, unsocial sick-loner, ugly, stupid, little-willied, ass fetus! Still, in the land of the witless, you would be King. You’re a ninnyhammer of the highest order, a git with an iron-cross. And you, a guttersnipe, has the nerve to fall asleep when I’m working? You ought to have your testicles torn-off, hung drawn and quartered. You are not worth…
Boy’s, boys… I can stand by no longer… my sweet Angels… Such hatred and so many insults are being bandied about… Is this right? Great ID leader in the ether! Why so, my dearest children?
Who the hell are you to get involved, ID? It’s me that’s been insulted…
Indeed, what did you, a self-proclaimed Alto of Alto’s do? Gave back insults and put-downs ten-fold, just because an ignorant human misunderstands?
Wot yo gonna do abarght it then Inchies Id? There’s nowt what you can do to change an Alto you know…
Indeed, there are several things I could actually do to create remorsefulness in you both… but that would bring me down to your level Alto and even lower if I was to lambast a pathetic human.
Erm… what er…
You’re right, Inchcock; who do you think you are to tell us what to do?
Undoubtedly, just by your two’s behaviour, I am a better, kinder, more understanding ID than you are Alto or Inchcock. I intend to have words with you to guide you along the path of righteousness, kindness and compassion… I have to teach as a female form of a spectre, gnomai, phantasm, succubae or plain ID, whichever you chose to brand me with! Through psychoanalysis, educate the part of the mind in which innate instinctive impulses and primary processes are manifest, thus releasing stress… Bear with me, pay attention, and a new opening will appear – full of pleasure and indubitably, a solution to your naughty, unnice, unpleasant ways of communicating within the shared human form will be found. And happiness will replace the bitterness and jealousy you have shared since the human was born… Now listen…
Inchies ID launched into a sleep-inducing marathon lecture for the next three hours. After that, I could no longer contact Alto-Inchy, and I fell asleep.
I hope that Alto-Inchie comes back to see me in the morning – blimey I do!
Vascular Dementia Doreen and the Thought-Storming,
Memory-loss, mind blanks, can be mentally disturbing,
At times depressing, troubling, often gruelling…
Alto-Ego and Inchies brain, arguing, duelling…
Sometimes the mind needs a rest for refuelling,
Here are some of the traits revealed, comedic and appalling!
Arguing with Alto-Inchy…
Conflict often starts when in the wet room, ablutioning, I’ve only one mirror; I use it for shaving in the morning… Or with mind-blanks, sometimes, it will be in the evening, I hate him; he’s superior, nasty and criticising! This Alto Inchie… the other me… can be baffling…
Mayhaps I need a neurologist or Psychologist visiting? I hear sounds from the past, traffic, songs, bugling… Although usually, we are deep in mental brawling… Me, the one who ends up depressed and caterwauling… Yet occasionally, Alto-Ego, becomes less insulting?
I suppose I need some form of help, some counselling? Yet I don’t believe anything can stop my mind from crumbling! Physically Peripheral Neuropathy Pete can be disabling, The Stroke ensured I shall forever be struggling… The Cataracts, Glaucoma and ears are much more worrying…
Yet some days, incredibly, I seem to be coping? I find that I am actually optimistic and hoping, I can sort out bits of concern by disentangling… The feeling guilty for my self-pity, by realising, Others are worse off and alone too… Humbling!
Stop and Ponder…
The Thought storms may suddenly go into mothballing…
I stop in the front room – it needs cleaning and sorting…
The brain tells me I require mollycoddling…
My fears and depressions certainly need muzzling!
Priorities need arranging and some actioning!
But it’s not easy for me, detail classifying, pigeonholing, Forgetting, misplacing, quarrelling amidst the schemozzling… Fears, worries, flash into mind… like anchovies shoaling, I feel my sanity at times is stumbling on its way to failing, Do you think the NHS will do mind-surveilling?
I see the view via photographing,
What do you see? Well, according to me…
Somewhere out there; Some folk will be contradicting,
Or a poor sod in the middle of a bankrupting…
A family, communally banqueting?
A Monopoly player cheating?
Someone undoubtedly shoplifting…
A lamb in a field might be bleating?
Or emergency workers, fire-fighting,
Drug gangs, selling, abusing…bloodletting?
A politician… bloviating!
A news reporter, reporting?
An illegal immigrant deporting?
A lucky sod having sex… luxuriating!
Someone up an alleyway, urinating?
First-time home-owners, decorating,
An old age pensioner… constipating!
A Dour Sunsetting
A hard-up family, regretting Brexiting?
A hustler, planning, hornswoggling!
A fiddling bank manager… calculating?
A mugged pensioner, capitulating…
A murderer being freed to kill again – Sickening!
A baby going through the pain of castrating?
A young couple learning about cavorting!
Another freed murderer, celebrating?
A Hari Krishna member chanting,
A water worker, chlorinating?
A Nottingham pick-pocket circulating,
A Politician: World war circumventing?
A pair of gents, cockfighting,
A Policeman, machete and gun confiscating?
Jews and Arabs coexisting?
Ah! Now I’m getting into the land of dreaming…
.The Red Van Man – lousy parking…
Parking properly, he’s not contemplating…
Maybe he has not got the ability?
If so, parking without conformity…
Blocking fire engines in an emergency?
He should get a cautioning?
Ah, now I’m remembering…
Private land! So no legal prosecuting…
I’m not surprised; at the laws failing…
They free murderers to do more killing!
Look at these perfect results above, contrasting…
To yesterday, when the SYS was rising…
Oh, dearie me!
The temperature was ever more declining…
34.1°c, but I’m only witwantoning!
.American Carer Julia, her kindness is unremitting,
She had another call to do, so not much nattering…
Whenever Julia calls, I find it thrilling…
When Julia leaves, it is somewhat saddening…
For she cheers me so, she’s pleasant, patient and Caring ♥
Lip Smackingly Good!
Do you like the look of the meal above, my dining?
No meat as such, but fish-sticks, without fish in?
The taste of them was breathtaking…
Not too sweet, oven chips, no frying…
And I’m not lying, the most satisfying…
Truly tasty, there’s no denying…
A treat to the taste buds… gobsmacking!
Harry Ramsdens Chip Shop style, well-worth trying!
I find things today are moral-contaminating,
Not that I’ve done much in the improving things contributing!
I’ve drifted along, weak-willed and no consolidating…
Done my bestest to be kind and temper-moderating… Welcomed, greeted folks, by my bridge building… Do no harm, I did to help for others, aid-orchestrating…
Now disabilities, old age, vascular dementia I’m getting… I keep falling over, but not fainting, Struggle with my ablutioning, Tried not for others to be abnegating… The eyes and ears problems get no alleviating, Let alone actually obtain any treating!
I’m aware of Dementia Doreen; I need sanity-auditing, My thoughts and intentions… are not completing… Use of the brain is nowadays complicating, My decisions, fears, desires are self-conflicting… I do little to deserve any respect or congratulating, The Thought-Storms are ever congregating…
The mind seems to be mentally contorting, The physical side doesn’t stand reporting… Even taking a wee-wee needs coercing! From logicalness, I think I’m distancing… Any paperwork is confusing and inconveniencing!
Memory, or lack of, mind blanks, have me cursing… I need help, mayhaps a little nursing?… No, perhaps some rejoicing, romancing? I may get by with some reminiscing? The brain has little left for downloading!