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SATURDAY 31st OCTOBER 2026
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An untypical start to today. As I slid and tumbled hastily off the bed, I trod on something that painfully forced a mild naughty word or two from my lips. More authentic, almost poetic words followed, and disbelief, as I realised I’d trodden on the ‘repaired-the-day-before Kodak Tim 2 camera!’ I lost my balance and fell against the back of the recliner. I caught the side of my face, and that started it off.
Depression kicked off, and more naughty, self-lamasting language was emitted. It remains an unsolved mystery why I even got the camera with me when I got my head down. I’ve never slept with a camera in my pyjamas before. Haha! Well, I don’t think I have. I didn’t take any painkillers, as a Carer would be arriving.
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I went into the kitchenette and took this misty photograph of the offer view. Then the ‘Oh, Susanna’ chimed from the front door. The Carer Cometh. Andrew. No neck cream, no body check. No barrier cream. No hoovering. However, he made me brew of Glengettie; Andrew made a decent job of it. Meds given out.
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I took off the small buds or nodes growing from the potatoes and put them in a bowl to add to the slow cooker for tonight’s meal. Which was going to be spuds, and fresh garden peas. Beetroot and chestnuts. I dropped many of the spuds’ nodes on the floor, and they rolled into any hole, nook, or cranny they found to hide in.
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Jenny came to have a natter with me, and gave good advice on my problems. Bless her.
Angel Jenny emailed me, kindly offering two of her butcher-bought large sausage rolls from the freezer. 
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I was making progress with the backlog of blogs I had. But it was painfully slow progress. Concentration was the problem, or rather the lack of concentration. I looked up this problem, thinking it may be linked to my Alzheimer’s disease with Lewy Body Dementia and Vascular Dementia. But it seems more likely that my Peripheral Neuropathy is the cause, or they both share the blame. (Dopamine: a type of monoamine neurotransmitter and hormone made in the brain that acts as a chemical messenger to communicate signals between nerve cells) and overwhelm: When a task feels too baffling, big, boring, or difficult, your brain looks for an escape hatch, leading to task-switching, procrastination, or task paralysis. (a state where you feel mentally “stuck” and completely unable to start or complete a task, even though you want to and know it needs to be done)
I sound intelligent, don’t I? I Googled this!
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Frank came up with them; they were so different from the normal ones. Packed solid with a tasty meaty filling. I left them out on the kitchen top to defrost and plan to have them with my meal tonight. Or was this yesterday?
Struggling gain!
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I went to take a photo from the kitchenette window; the photo didn’t get taken, though. Because I hit my head on the corner of the window frame as I opened it to take the snap. This snap is from when I bashed my head in the wet room when my right leg gave way; I used that one again.
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Carer Imran arrived. We decided on what level of pain relief I needed, and it was issued. He did a body check, barrier cream on my blobby belly – I have to lift it for him so he can get at the lesions. It’s got that ginormous. Haha!
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Back to the computer, and my productivity was stunted even further, as I procrastinated and dilly-dallied from one task to another. I was in as full-a-flow as could be, working on the blog, and my TBI’d cerebrum decided I needed to stop and make a food order for next week. Why? Gawd knows! Then I put more things on the back burner, because I wanted more of the Lemon Wafers, but I couldn’t remember where I got them. A Google search revealed that Asda had that brand in stock, but only after I found that J Sainsburies, Iceland, and Morrisons don’t sell them. Then, when I went to place an order with Asda, I found they were out of stock! Also, I had already placed an order with them. Well, I must have got some from somewhere; I’d just opened the last packet.
A search for any brand of Lemon Puffs was carried out on Google; they all but Iceland had that brand in, but those ones are a smidge hard for my poor deteriorating teeth.
As if by some form of sorcery, I found myself hoovering the hallway. I’d done this a few hours earlier! 
Then I sorted the laundry things out. Back to the computer, I found many emails and went through them. And back to the blog. I saw how many mistakes I’d made and wanted to cry, but I didn’t; it turned into self-loathing. After a self-moody, I started making things right.
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Carer Imran looked so tired. He still did a decentish job, mind you. Offered a body check. Heat-treated my back and creamed the back of my neck. Said it had red marks on it now. It does get sore more; I’m sure I’ll endure!
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Now the computer plays up! Followed, or it might be part of the same problem, whatever it is, CorelDraw is sticking; had to close down manually twice!
Not that this bothered me, of course.  
Not a man of my supreme intelligence, patience, calm, relaxed attitude, and imperturbable, unflappable, tranquil, placid nature; I’m well known for it. 
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Carer Prem did the last call in fine form. 
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THE MEAL OF THE DAY
💗 Thanks, Jenny! 💗
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Early morning snaps of the sky & horizon.
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Not very good, are they?
I fell asleep as the football came
on the TV. Went to get some
more water to feed the Catheter
through the bladder when I took
these. Maybe I was out of joint
for missing the footy?
Especially missing Man City,
losing a match – Cragknagles!
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