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The ailment with the most pain today was undoubtedly . When I had a seizure, as usual, Shirley started shuddering, and the pain brought me back into a world of confusion, with a refusal to grasp anything brain-related. This time, the out-of-itness lasted for well over an hour. Most off-putting.
Also, the balance was all over the place, as if someone had shaken me out of the seizure. Well, I suppose that  did do that.
I know it happened again after a late seizure, and I took a tumble of the delicate kind, aiming for and landing in the c1966, £300, second-hand charity-shop bought, crumb-containing, odour-retaining, Harold’s Haemorrhoid-testing, nauseatingly beige coloured, non-working, virus-breeding recliner. Dislodging the alcohol to remove the patch on my leg, which holds/keeps the assembly, array of connecting tubes together… but now it dangles loosely. And I cannot ask the District Nurses for help. Should I activate the instructions given to me? “Get a Taxi to the QMC, A&E department”, as I had to do the other day? Well, I can’t, I do not have enough cash to pay for a taxi. What alternatives have I got?
Option One: I could wait until a Carer arrives in two hours, ask them to get me dressed and the walker trolley out, and tell them I will not be in for my next two medication calls. Then catch a bus to Sherwood, one to Nottingham, then a tram to the hospital. Which will mean missing the Warfarin, Beta-Blockers and other doses. I’ll likely spend hours waiting; the fungal lesion will spurt blood and urine again. And another day lost. But looking back at my last bus and tram trips to and from the QMC is like a horror story. I got lost. Took a tumble on the tram. Had yobboes bother in the way back in the City Centre. Then I missed the bus stop, and had to walk up the mountainous Wincester Street hill to get to the flat. The Carer called me en route, from my flat, but did not come to assist me, as I struggled with obstinate Anne Gyna and breathing. Option One was not attractive.
Option Two: As option one, but take a bus to Sherwood, see if I have any money and try to get it out of the ATM. Then get a taxi to the hospital, by which time I may have been poisoned by the backflow into the kidneys, before even being seen. Mmm? Not good!
Option Three: Commit Suicide.
In the end, I stuck some cellotape over the crumpled holding patch and hoped for the best.
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She was at her most venomous. I couldn’t do anything with the arm or shoulder without it hurting. I’d cross my fingers if it wasn’t for  twisting my fingers. Tsk!

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