– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – I’m not coping with life’s cock & bull,
Not living life much, indeed it’s not complete,
It’s less agreeable, more allegorical,
With the ingrowing toenails on my feet!
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Lonely, depressing, confusing and exilic,
Killing, wars, hating have become endemic,
Greed has now become most eclectic,
This is making me into an elegiac!
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If companionship I could acquireth…
A recovery in my spirits may beginneth,
Even at 80, can life refresh?
No, I’ll just bewaileth!
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To avoid getting any angrier, or angstier,
Full of failure and being depressederer,
Maybe I ought to see an augurerer? Before I meet St. Peter? ::::: I now struggle with things arithmetical, As I always have with things astrophysical, My knees and hands are all arthritical, But I try to stay amicable. ::::: I’ve always been something of a hypothesist, I wanted to be a mouth organist, a harmonicist, And was always a reader, a hermeneuticist, And a pretty fair anecdotalist! ::::: Nowadays, I’m incapable of getting a crescendi, Sad as it is, at least I do know why, But with the end of the world being well-nigh… I worry about the survival of the tsetse fly! ::::: I went to learn about antispyware…
There were a lot of people there…
An MP, a roadsweeper & a beefeater…
Good job it wasn’t a vegetarian affair!
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I went to an anti-Starmer get-together,
We all agreed he spoke bilgewater,
We knew sadly that he wasn’t a suicider…
So we bought a steamroller to run him over!
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Sir Francis died aboard ship of dysentry,
Lincoln, Garfield, McKinley & Kennedy,
Each President was assassinated, sadly…
But no one has killed Starmer yet? – alackaday! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
WARS STILL RAGE IN OUR WORLD – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Last night, I slept much shorter, but I was far less ridden with jumping awake all the time. And I did get back to sleep more quickly each time, even if tried a few times to tug out my interstitial sulcus. What was totally missing for the whole time was . A smile emanating! I considered thinking about the possibility of making the bed but chose to remove the nocturnal catheter pouch, and urine was a six on the NHS scale.
Matron Jackie and an assistant called on me. (As did seizures, dizziness and Anne Gyna) I struggled to follow things with two voices to listen to. Matron Jackie will try to get me help with hospital visits and doing the ablutions.
Seizures increased after they had gone. Confused, I did not make any notes. Did take some photos. Not necessarily in the order put on this blog, Confusion Konrad to blame.
Misty morning.
Clock-Calendar changed.
Waste sorted.
The spuds were readied and put in the slow cooker.
Evening shot.
Nine hours later, I made the first mug of tea. Realised I’d turned the slow cooker on to boil the spuds but left them on the old cooker. This could happen to any other idiot, you know! Hehehe!
It was yet another busy day, but little got done. – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Keep Safe! – Kia Haumaru! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
This ode was inspired by Koheleth,
Who came into my dream on March seventh,
We chatted, and also… methinketh…
We rewrote the ten commandments, meseemeth,
He asked what mankind was really worth.
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Seems we shared many an apomorph,
In this dream, I was an ectomorph,
Seems he rebirthed in Dusseldorf,
He said life today is unsocial & tharf,
I don’t know what his words were worth.
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Long dead, he’s now a Grim Reaper, today,
‘I’ve got my own; he contacts me each day’,
He added; Mankind’s existence is not justificatory,
I said Well, there’s always been wars & poverty!
Mankind no longer read the words of the Almighty!
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I said, we no longer use mankind, but humankind,
It’s considered insulting to our female kind!
His looks of scorn tormented my mind…
Women’s duties, the Lord defined!
To reproduce, to submit to her husband.
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To the window I was beckoned…
He spoke as his arms lifted skyward…
Earthlings are no longer disciplined,
The Lord is thought less of than cannabinoid,
Faith, they go out of their way to avoid!
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The vision ended, and I felt isolated, bare…
Was this Old Testament man really there?
What was it he wanted to tell or share?
Did he visit to lambast or assure?
To the bible we should adhere?
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It was written by men to suit their persuasion!
To get a stronghold on the masses & accreditation,
Hundreds of faiths, claiming authorisation,
It’s no wonder I get depression,
Faiths & Governments are anti-egalitarian!
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Proletariats get only biased adjudicature,
Let’s face it, Starmer is an out-and-out liar!
Justice, fairness, & compassion we require,
We get greed, oligarchs, violence & war,
What can we do? Nothing, I’m sure! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – I found an old SD card hidden on the floor underneath the computer desk. I also found some photos of the progress being made at a house in front of the flats. It took another to update the series, but now it appears finished.
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– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Last night was the worst night’s sleep of the year What didn’t keep waking me up? Every bloody thing seemed to! And despite being tired out, I struggeld to get back to sleep every damned time I woke up! I gave up at 05:00hrs. Anne Gyna, I suppose, was the most oft-repeated offender, closely followed by Shaking Shoulder-Shirley. As I moved my muscular, healthy, perfectly formed body to get at the , I started coughing and sneezing! Humph! What the heck next? Double Hump!
I removed the nocturnal catheter pouch. It was a bit darker today, and as I stood up, I lost my balance and gave way at that second… Fortunately, I managed to land on the aged, grotty-looking c1966 made, charity-shop-bought, horribly beige-coloured, £300, Harold’s Haemorrhoid-testing, non-operational, acne-giving, virus-breeding, rickety, easy-to-fall-out-of recliner that I’d just climbed out of. A bit of good luck here: did not bleed! I emptied the night pouch, disposed of it, and paid a visit to the Porcelain Throne. A stinky affair, and sticky as well! I got the tune of Phorpain gel to rub into Cartilage Chloe and Arthur Itis. However, I got some pm the day cather bag. I had to take it off and wash it. I’ve only got two left. I must order some more. I clearly remember thinking something similar two weeks ago. This brought on , Why? I Dunno! But he did.
I took a snap of the view from the kitchenette window. However, when I uploaded the shots to the computer later, they didn’t appear on the SD card. Treble Humph! I gathered all the wastebin bags into one and placed it near the front door. Then, I got onto the computer and realised I had not put the SD card in Kodak Tim 2 or Kodak 1. What a mess trying to sort them out. It seemed so much harder to get to grips with while DDDD was present. I spent hours fathoming about getting them arranged in order. Some are on each SD card and on each internal storage.
So I semi-guessed, reading each box to see if it said day or evening. Some I could not read, thanks to Glaucoma Gladys. But they were obvious ones I had to take day and night, so there was no problem. I took them. Then, as I was emptying the catheter day bag, blood was coming from Little Inchy’s fungal lesion. So I applied some cream Hydrochloride cream. Gawd, it hurt. Haha!
As it turned out, I pressed on with the blog—a mission impossible. I did not finish yesterday’s post but am starting today’s. What an imbecile!
Was joined by the longest ever Absence Seizures. I worked out the best I could, which must have lasted three hours. I was finally coming out, or back into, mock reality. The carer arrived. I know I was talking to him, but I do not know what. I’m going to have to ring the Doctor about these. Mind you, I already have. I waited 8 days to get a telephone call back from her. I have waited another 6 days for a call. This gigantic, lengthy, non-eleptic seizure left me confused & drained. Not good!
I must get Saturday’s blog done now (22:36hrs).
Done it! Hurrah! .23:00hrs
Earlier sunset snaps. Almost like a painting?
Food needed now! Wunderbar!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Concerned at too many a seizure… Differing types, lengths, anywhither. Waiting for Matron, as assessor & advisor, Three weeks now, she may come in October, Worried about my mental architecture, My innards, eyesight and Back-Pain-Brenda, Currently, the worst different types of seizure, My latest ailment is arithmaphobia, Doing the medications ordering and roster, I feel a sort of mental nincompooper, Signs of my becoming a cacographer, Eyesight & shakes, a terrible photographer, My mind & body are contracting dystaxia, Options, decisions taken, ever more dotier, Prolonged seizures? I become a gongoozler, Ankle ulcers colours, black, red and/or zaffre, Little Inchies Fungal lesion, Anne Gyna, Shirley’s Shaking Shuddering Shoulder, Toothache Tiffany, Gladys Glaucoma, Earache Erasmus, Acne and Eczema, Cartilage Choe & Carol, Episodic Ataxia,
Dementia Doreen, Paroxysmal Dyskinesia,
Dark Dank Depression Duncan, a canker!
For reading this Ode-Moan; I thank yer!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Just look at the figures for this week! And the urine colours are better, to boot!
.- – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Do you remember your girl-seeking soirees?
The eroticism, desire, the enamoredness,
Your hopes are to find and have affairs du Coeur,
The wooing, the seduction, the wassails?
As your lustfulness, starting with snuggling…
Would your flirting end in seductioning?
Your aim is for physical entangling!
I wasn’t very good at romancing,
I was usually one of the wannabes…
Hoping one day I’d stop failing,
For me, few gals had a vacancy…
This didn’t stop me from trying,
Most ended up with threnodies,
I rarely got as far as groping,
I’d often fail to hit the high-jinks,
That’s why I’m sitting here crying…
My efforts were more like conjecture,
Not easy with a todger that’s miniature,
Turned down; a smile I’d manufacture,
I’ll have to pull myself together,
I always look back and see only failure,
Now I’m an enforced refrainer,
Not only am I getting older…
If any lady was to offer…
How could I remove the catheter?
Soirees no more, I have to surrender!
And without enough cash to go on a bender!
From the local yobbery, could buy a snorter?
Still, I’ve a good week on my sphygmomanometer.
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – 05:30hrs; I rose from the sweet, if broken, 5-hour sleep. Feeling rather good, actually. I tended to the nocturnal catheter bag. Sorted the bins.
I took a snap of the morning view from the kitchen.
Then, I visited the wet room, initially to utilise the Porcelain Throne. TT was again in charge.
I decided to get the Ablutions done while I was in good shape. I started with the teggies and then the shaving. Several were acquired. All on the rear part of the neck, so I didn’t see any blood until after they’d dripped onto my back and the wet room floor. More mess to clean up, but I did it without any Accifauxpas! Smug-Mode! I showered, a quick one. Then, I dried off and started the medicationings. Usual routine. No problems with it. I was beginning to think I might still be in bed, sleeping and dreaming about what was happening. Things were unnaturally going well for me – it’s worrying. Hehehe!
I heard the door chime as I was fighting to get the protection pants on. The Carer Promise was arriving. He waited patiently for me to finish after I asked him if he minded. He was a lovely lad. After dishing out the medications, he read some dates I could not see on the fridge, then departed on his rounds. Thanks, mate.
COMPUTER COCK-UP! Old Photo used I’d been working on the blog. I went to fetch a drink from the fridge and tried to continue. The blog would not let me scroll, and words were highlighted when I was doing nothing. Then, a screen came up full of details that meant nothing to me. I spotted on one of the ever-changing usage lines that a Google engineer or assistant was working on it. I left it alone, hoping that whatever he was doing would solve the issue, and went to put some potatoes in the slow cooker for later. I returned several minutes later, and the window was not showing, and I cheered a bit. Then I noticed two Google thingamibobs were open and was unsure which to open.
I chose one randomly. ARRGH!
All the top intro things I’d done for over two hours had vanished! I had to start again. But at least it let me type and scroll again. I think I’m feeling good, with
and not DDDD up till now, the situation soon reversed.
I didn’t realise how long I’d been off; it seems that when Carer Joanne arrived, I was still having trouble with the blog. Flipping ‘eck, it must have been about four hours! I must have missed something else that caused this discrepancy timewise. Surely?
It took me ages to catch up, and by that time, was making his teatime call on me!
What a long time lost, and nothing much done.
To be continued… well, sorted out on Sunday Morning.
I got into a pickle when an SD card packed up. Finding photos I knew I’d taken took me hours. I’m even further behind now (Sunday). Here’s hopefully an accurate update with the photos retrieved. It’s a late afternoon snap.
Ahem!
Teatime.
A little later. Closer shot of the same.
Seizures kicked in while eating this.
Washed the pots, and fell asleep.
Waking every minute it felt like to me. With on the job every time I woke up. But no long twitchings, they stopped almost as I stirred.
I may have been having nocturnal seizures. Hard to work it out, really. Just once, the metallic smell and taste erupted from my innards. As usual, followed by terrible dizziness. You feel like you are falling for a few moments every time.
Even when you’re flat out on the bed, even when it visits, I’m sat in the c1966, £300 Oxfam charity shop-bought, wincingly grotty, beige-coloured, crumb-covered from my nocturnal nibblings, itch-making, uncomfortable, positively unhealthy, and dangerous, no longer operational, virus-breeding, easy-to-fall-out-of, Catheter-tube-trapping recliner.
Did the last call. Can’t recall much of it.
I soon nodded off again, missing the football match on the TV that I’d hoped to watch.
A well-interupted night’s sleep. Seizures? , . , one even had a couple of turns.
Unquestionably, it was my worst night this year.
I’ll try not to repeat this waffle on tomorrow’s blog.
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Inchy: Grim, can’t you ring the bell before you visit?
Grim: Well, that wouldn’t look very authentic!
Inchy: Ah, I can see the logic…
Grim: Anyroad, it’s some good luck for you, Inchy, that I’ve come to transmit!
Inchy: Oh, goodie, I don’t usually good news rhetoric.
Grim: The H&H ‘Hearafter Selection Committee’ usually has a maximum percentage allowed, and it’s strict.
Inchy: Yes, tell me in plain language, not contorted or overscholastic…
Grim: Well, our auger & accountant tells us of a coming peace treaty, and we’ll need someone up there with us to keep the score in the following Oligarch-inspired war. Well, Heaven and Hell still use Windows 3.
Inchy: Yes, tell me tell me…
Grim: Don’t talk to me like that, all antagonistically!
Inchy: Sorry, but I’m excited. Accept my apology!
Grim: We don’t have anyone up there who can remember Windows 3; it changes almost daily.
Inchy: You mean Word and Excel? Have I heard what you said correctly?
Grim: It’s difficult for the computer to run with no electricity!
Inchy: What? H & H both exist powerlessly? Grim: Well, heaven did a deal with Hell, and they get the politicians, Oligarchs and murderers to produce the power using pedal power, and all for free. Inchy: Hehehe!
Grim: We use a power system called Cyclistically to make our own electricity.
Inchy: Do they have to cycle for eighteen-hour shifts? Is there no food or drink? Will they be beaten about the head if they go too slowly?
Grim: Aye, they cycle 24/7/7, abundantly!
Inchy: Heavens & Hell, that news pleases me!
Grim: Now we can fit you in surreptitiously,
If you promise to use Window 3 Inchy, secretly.
Inchy: I’ll work diligently if you just take me away.
From this hellhole of an earth & cruel life…
I’ve been denied a wife, get ailments & strife…
But would my health, mental & physical, revive?
Grim: We’ll never know. You won’t be alive…
Inchy: How will I cope with computer & hardrive?
Grim: If you pass St. Peter’s inquisition, you’ll thrive!
Inchy: I’ll thrive but not be alive! Is that coercive?
Grim: Don’t tell me you’re feeling apprehensive?
It’s an alternative, a sort of imitation life…
Inchy: It’s Earth life that I’m not coping with!
Grim: You’ll find things are different, cosmocratic,
Inchy: Will the souls be kind & communistic?
Grim: They certainly will not be consumeristic,
Inchy: Is that good? Bad? It seems to contradict,
Grim: You really want to stay on Earth’s cesspit?
Inchy: No, no, no! Look at me, I’m cadaveric.
I’ll come with you, even if this is all a trick!
Grim: I’ll tell summat else to make you ecstatic,
Inchy: Please do, Grim. Make me aware,
Grim: One of your jobs when you get up there…
Will be a sort of aged welcoming au pair,
Doing one-to-one interviews, as an assessor,
Deciding which sole will go where…
To Heaven, & peace everafter…
Or to hell, specifally to be a cycler,
You’ll sentence each one, whomsoever,
I’ll assure you can Starmer!
I’ll ensure Starmer gets you as an interviewer!
Inchy: Great, I’m ready when you are!
Grim: Sorry, I was pulling your leg.
Still, I’ve made you so much cheerier!
Inchy: You little monkey, you’re getting cheekier!
Grim: Anyway, if I took you now, you’d miss Keir’s funeral & not be able to be the cheerleader!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – 3 To Find – In Nine Seconds. I think that’s a little short.
It took me nine minutes to get them all! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Smoked ham on non-butter buttered cheesy topped rolls. With sliced Natoora black tomatoes. Sea salted. With cooked beetroot and battered mashed potatoes. A pot of lemon & lime yoghourt last night. – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Two Natorra tomatoes left to have later. – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
A decent 6 hours of sleep and a few wake-ups, but not due to . Not a lot of them anyway.
Removed from the day pouch, and from then on, I started so many tasks in a short space of time and made many errors. For example, after I started sorting the waste bags out. Got three bags into one and intended to do the other two. But no, not me. I found myself with my head in the oven cleaning the racks. I say I found myself because obviously one of the seizures had got a hold of me; the last thing I remember doing before this was taking the first bag to the door. And was going to sort the front room bins. I looked in the room, and they had not been done. It gets better! I returned to the kitchen to see what I’d done with the oven and found a tap had been left running and a nightshirt in the sink. Since the water was cold, I assumed I must have been rinsing after washing the Kagoul. I rinsed the shirt and wrung it out, ready to put it on a coathanger to drip dry in the wet room… I reckon it caused me a bout of vertigo as I removed the shirt from the sink to the bowl. No need to tell you, but I will: I dropped the bowl, water all over the floor and me, and the monitoring station came through to tell me the water leak alarm had activated. It took me a minute or two to regain my balance sufficiently to reach the monitor.
I never recovered from this bout all day long. A new fear gripped me, and it was amazing that I didn’t take a tumble again. I sat down for a minute or two and changed the clock-calendar on the computer desk.
I was soon back in the kitchen, sorting out the mess. Then I got a look at the oven that I’d come round to, to find I was working on cleaning it. What a mess! I’d put some foam spray cleaner on everything, but then I found the bottle label that read, “WARNING: For Bathroom & Toilet Cleaning Only!” So, I spent ages getting it off and drying the oven.
A nagging douby that I was going to, or needed to do something, lasted for about ten-seconds. Then I made my way to the wet room to get the ablutions, medications and Porcelain Throne duties done. The Porcelain Throne was not even sat on.
However, I managed a gentle shave and only caught the head patches from yesterday’s tumble a few times. The shaving was done so gingerly that I might not have bothered. The neck growth felt the same to my touch as before I’d shaved! The went okay. And… I got the fresh PPs on without any falls, stumbles or droppages!
A Caregiver arrived, and I remembered that I needed to hang the Kagoule on the wetroom shower rails to dry. So, after the carer had medicated me, I got another kagoule washed and hung it up with the other in the wet room. I wasn’t with it at all today. I thought about making a brew of Glengettie, but then I remembered I’d not taken the waste bags to the chute yet. So, I did! There were no traps on my fingers or my hand. And no walking into the doorframes. 2.
Carer Sam arrived. Took the laundry down for me, bless her.
A belated, unexpected series of Mini-Seizures visited me. After all the work I’d done today to try to catch up, for about four hours I was… was, well, erm… in and out-of-it. When in, I had to try to sort out what’d gone while I was out of it… but would go out of it before I could get an angle on what I’d been doing when I was out-of-it the time before; if anything. I just read the above, and Blanety-Blank came to mind.
I made a meal, Sweet and sour chicken Chinese style. I boiled and added some potatoes and a small jar of Hoisin and spring onion sauce. I bought it years ago; I can’t find a use-by date. Then, I also decided to have some potato waffles on the side. So, I did! I was so hungry. When I was about to fetch Kodak Tim 2, the Carer arrived, and I forgot to photograph the meal. Tsk!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – I find life to be undefined, Plans and hopes are undetermined, Often, my thoughts are unwarranted, My intentions remain unendorsed, No outcomes are usually unassured! Daily seizures are unprecedented… ::::: My brain? It cannot really be classified… My bones & joints are crepitated, In High Mood Horis, I’m almost contented, Deep Depression Duncan often caprioled, No one here, no chance of getting croodled, Life is getting more circumscribed… ::::: There’s a hollowness when I get depressed, I get sorry for myself, feel disadvantaged, It may prompt wild things to be deliberated, My thoughts get convoluted, disassembled, A nasty DDD session can only be described… As coffee that’s been decaffeinated. I hate it, sickening until it’s departed! ::::: DDDD can’t be rectified or remedied, It’s beyond being cured or rectified, After it was analysed, I was repulsed, Dementia inside cannot be resarciated, I admit I felt forlorn, resigned… The seizures & DDDD never retreated, Another visit soon, to be reinvestigated, I wonder if my brain can be reinstalled. ::::: In High Mood Horis, I can feel stimulated, Although that sounds a little sugar-coated, To wild dreams & fantasies I succumbed, DDDD returns, I get mentally spifflicated, The longer the session, the more scunnered, Mentally drained, and feel shanghaied, Writing this ode, I’ve been shemozzled… The DDDD has suddenly sequestered, Blessedly to uncaringness I succumbed! ::::: If Happy Horis stayed all day accommodated! And DDDD could be disconnected, abdicated, Then hopes & plans could be activated, Then I could be far less aggravated! And no doubt feel much less alienated, But of course, DDDD can’t be amputated, The damned DDD can’t even be ameliorated, But I can get so frustrated and acerbated… Realising that my needs can’t be assuaged, Dreaming the Seizures may be assuaged And Anne Gyna’s pains be abrogated! ::::: Daily, I’m self-loathed and vilipended, Verbally, I’m self-verberated, Also, I get self-vulnerated, Once, when I left the hot tap running, I vomited, And again, was self-vociferated, I believed I should be vapulated, Had my sanity been vitiated? I kid myself I am capably viveured, I’ve still often get self-verbally-violated, The line below: Can I be acquitted and vindicated? I’d gladly see Starmer vivisepultured! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – DDDDD WAS ON FOR MOST OF THE DAY. Little got acheived. – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – I found a few missing photos from yesterday’s internal memory of the Kodak Tim 2. Here they are.
Late evening shots from the kitchenette. To the left Centre And the right An earlier shot, with the moon crescent
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – There’s not a lot on here. I’ve got to admit that really got to me today. I’m so sorry, but I was pathetically mopping about in between the lousy seizures and just couldn’t muster any enthusiasm until late afternoon when visited me. He didn’t stay long, and it was soon back to sitting, staring at what might as well have been a blank screen. But with an overfull catheter bag, too! The Carer told me when they arrived. An hour later, and returned and is still with me as I type away now on this computer. I spent hours on today’s ode. The reason? I’ll tell yers, Haha! Who usually comes on bad around 16:00hrs or so, blurred things at 14:00hrs. Then, amazingly, at 15:00 or so, the vision came back quite suddenly. So I’m getting on with it, but naturally, I expect the return on or at any time now. Omlt just typed this, and electric shocks shot up my right leg, followed by his ‘ailment-in-arms’ partner . No shaving cuts today, yet. I didn’t have one! Dirty boy! As I was about to go in the wet room. Miserably, I gave up the fight and, feeling sorry for myself, sat down and fell asleep! I was woken up by who was in cahouts with DDD and Seizure Sandra. The daft things, I guess! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
Only photos to trigger the memory from here on.
I’m not sure this is today’s shot of the waste bags. I may have got it mixed up and deleted the wrong one. I was merrily grafting away here. And I got that fearful, sudden-sinking feeling; I thought I had left the hot tap running again. I moved limpingly to the kitchen, and the catheter contraption fell down to almost my ankle! Arrgh! The tug on Little Inchy was as near to excruciating as I wanted it to be. At least the tap was not running – but I’d left the fridge door open! Now, the problems multiplied. I had a mini-seizure as I was checking the catheter and tried to pull it up quickly to relieve the pain. Lost my balance and reached out to grab the corner of the counter, and unfortunately, I missed it due to the intense sunshine blasting through the window! I now have even more scars on the tight leg ulcer, and it bled a tiny bit as I caught it on the trolley. On the bright side, there usually is one if I look hard enough -at least I stayed, as wobbly as they were, on my feet. Now I had water running out of the fridge, blood trickling down my leg, a mess to sort out, and the telephone started ringing!
I abandoned the mess I created and got to the landline in time. Sister Jane talked about tonight’s Forest vs. Ipswich F.A. Cup game. She and Pete are going to it. (I watched it later; it’s still on the box, in extra time).
Then I went back to the kitchenette, and it wasn’t until then that I realised I’d just soaked myself in the cold water I’d poured into the bowl and dropped it! Wet dressing gown, legs, and feet. Which, of course, made the messed-up area even larger to clean up now! DDDD went deep this time. I can’t recall everything I had to sort out. It must have taken me well over an hour and a half. Washing and drying inside the fridge and throwing away some soaked foods. I changed my shirt and protection pants. Putting my wet slippers, shirt & dressing gown into the laundry bag. Then, I got fresh slippers, a shirt and a dressing gown. I still had some cleaning up I’d missed, and the landline rang again. All I could hear was background noise. For anyone who knows me, to ring this late worried me. I thought it might be my sweetheart, Frank’s Jenny, or sister Jane. Jenny might have been in a pickle with something, like Jane. I’d got Jane’s number on auto dial on the landline, so I rang her first; as I did, I realised she would be at the football match. No surprise she didn’t answer. Then I rang Jenny. I know it was late, but she might have needed support or help, so I rang. She told me she was okay, and that was wonderful to hear. She spoke of the window cleaner situation at the flats and asked about the medical problem, and I told her I was waiting for Matron Jackie to visit me to explain about the seizures. Bless her for her caring nature ♥. Then Jane rang back. I was in total disarray. So many things were happening simultaneously, and I had little, if any, control over any of them.
Anne Gyna and both turned their attentions on me at the same time. I had to give up sorting anything out. Concentration and confusion took over. I’ll try to finish this before I give up and get my head down. I’m so tired and weary now. Even joined in the mayhem. I’m not interested in eating at all. In the morning, I must ask the caregiver to redo/repair/replace the catheter for me.
I’ll get the out-of-sync photos on.
Aha, letters delivered. Carer allowance cut? It’s still unopened. The same dosages. I remembered and made time to update the c1970s clock-calender at 17:10hrs it seemed. Hehe! Results of the Accifauxpas over the last two days!
I’ve eaten nothing all day and am so tired. I think I’ll have some biscuits and get my head down. Another busy day is coming up tomorrow. Just what I need after today’s farcicalness!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – A Thought: Please make tomorrow less stressful. PLEASE!
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– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – THE BEST WEEK FOR AGES! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – The mysteries of the unknown
I usually ask Google Chrome,
I can’t ask anyone. I live alone,
You can contact me on the phone,
Would anyone adopt me and make a twosome?
I’m housetrained and a semi-gastronome,
All mod cons, I’ve got a gramophone,
Plenty of drugs, opioids & oxycodone,
Fentanyl, morphine, & hydromorphone,
I’m involuntarily impotent, I acknown,
I’m seeking a well-aged bellibone,
I’ll try not to be too burdensome,
Back to the mysteries of the unknown…
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Why was I born into a family of homunculi?
Why have I never eaten a Georgian-style khinkali?
Starmer has not been assassinated yet. Why?
The voters are in a state of mamihlapinatapai!
Why does old age confuse and profundify?
We beat the plague, why not Streptococci?
Why call politicians politicians? Not succubi!
MPs are monsters, shapeshifters, liars & yokai,
Why has the Lord not returned to lithify?
Oligarchs, killers, warmongers to ignify?
We’ve disagreed, rules to verify…
Humankind plays with mobiles & wi-fi,
Existing with prices going high, high, high!
The mysteries of the unknown…
::::: Mysteries Unfurled!
Starmer’s inaction over inflation,
Cripples the proletariat of our Nation,
Result, vexation, indignation, & irritation…
Voters thought he’d be an agathodaemon,
His Labour values are lost; he’s an abomination!
His lies and backhanders create aversion,
Failed to convince us of his bourgeoisification,
The Labourites voted for an abecedarian,
His lying, directly and by omission…
Will rebound, bringing constitutional destruction,
Because there is no viable opposition…
Keirs is well aware of this situation,
And I’m ready for my cremation…
Then I’ll miss the upcoming revolution! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – I’m sorry that I mentioned the seizures were fewer yesterday than lately. They came back with a vengeance! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – What a fantastic dream I had last night! I was in space, floating about, breathing and singing, and I was young again. For some reason, I was wearing my old football gear, including the rock-hard boots and shin pads! I knew that this could not be happening when the Tardis nosily came to rescue me. Inside was… wait for it… David Tennant’s version of the Doctor and Spike Milligan were inside! Both were sozzled and not making a lot of sense. But it was only a dream, and I seemed to know this then. Spike told me not to worry about the Darlek in the corner; the Doctor had unplugged it. That was it, all over, the dream had stopped! I think an electric shock up the leg was the reason for me shooting awake. Just one solitary twich from , & I removed the nocturnal pouch from the day bag. Then, I scribbled notes about the dream on the notepad near the hospital bed.
As I made my first move to get on my feet, I was delighted I was next to the bed cause I thought I had a seizure and a visit from , and fell back onto the bed at the same time. Probably not, though. One or the other. That put the mockers on my plans. No way I was going to go under the shower if there was a likelihood of another seizure. The wet room floor is a lot harder than the bed is. Haha! I decided I’d do the ablutions and medicalisations with a stand-up wash and shave my feet in a bowl of antiseptic disinfectant to soak while shaving. I put the kettle on for a brew of Co-op 99 tea and sorted the waste bags out. I took the tea in the wet room with me, as I felt several shooting up my right leg. I utilised the Porcelain Throne first. Trotsy Terence was right back in full charge again. Surprisingly, there was a bit of pain as the evacuation sploshed into the bowl in about ten seconds. The blood could be seen in the water and felt on my bottom and legs. Now I knew! Today was going to be one of those days. I didn’t need my EQ to tell me, but he did anyway. Cleaning myself and things up kicked off! Much worse than she was yesterday. I stopped cleaning up and went to get some under-the-tongue tablets from the medical drawer. I’d been told to stop taking them long ago, but I kept them; they are rarely needed. But just for such an occasion as today, I’d take one. Only one is left. It can’t be helped; I’m not supposed to take them anyway. Slipped it under my tongue, and threw the box away. And hobbled back to the wetroom. Finished cleaning up and got the bowl down to fill with hot water, washing-up liquid & dettol. The plastic bowl split and is now unusable. I will still not risk a shower, though. Farcical, but it had to be done; I used the small picker-upperer to get a flannel to my feet and ankles. Then, I used it to get the towelling done. was having a great time in my chest! Stbbing here, stabbing there, up, down, lower, higher… Humph! I hadn’t thought (which is a perfectly natural occurrence for me) to check the date on the GTTs! Ah, well, too late now. My extrasensory feeling, uneasiness of what the day will bring, was reinforced when the flipping started again just as was dying down. I don’t think it was a foreboding sensation, but it was more of an inkling that the day may bring forth calamities, Accifaupas, & Whoopsiedanglelops. Yet there were no signs of DDDD as there were earlier. The shaving went well; just two more cuts. I forgot about doing my teeth. I had all the usual treatments. But when I looked down at the leg ulcers, they looked like were building up to burst some papules of fluid soon. Both ankles seemed to be building up to it. Even the left one looked a smidgen dodgy. The right one was simply painful, while the left one wasn’t at all. I found six new growths, three on each lower leg. They don’t bode well, but knowing my legs, they may be sweet as a nut in the morning.
I’d let the tea go cold in the morning fracas, so I washed and washed the mug and then got on the computer. I’d been blogging for an hour or two, during which time the catheter bag had to be emptied three times. I’ve no idea why; I’ve not been drinking the required amount by a long shot. I’ll start on the soda water.
The Carer arrived, Selina, I think. No, I made a mess of that. Selena came earlier; the odes had gone chronologically wrong again. I do that, I’ve noticed. It was Carer Kimberly on the second visit. I’ve forgotten what I was going to write now. Erm… Oh, yes… Kimberley spotted that I’d left the hot water in the kitchen sink. So, there will be no hot water until this evening. (Look at the time—it’s nearly teatime now.) What happened? I wouldn’t be surprised in the least if the seizures hadn’t discretely visited!
Better press on; I’ve not finished yesterday’s blog yet. My feeling of foreboding seems to be correct.
. I had about an hour of horrendous pains from . Genuinely worried, I decided to call for assistance… As I got up, I gave way, and I crumpled, aiming to land on the c1966, £300 charity shop-bought second-hand, wincingly grotty, beige-coloured, not working, crumb-covered from the nocturnal nibblings, itch-making, uncomfortable, virus-breeding, easy-to-fall-out-of recliner. I hit my bottom cheek on the arm as I landed! The blood from flowed and hurt a fair bit.
When I’d Phorpain Gelled Chloe and cleaned and medicated the piles, I rose to get to the phone and realised that the pains had stopped altogether!
Well, now I’m not so worried about not having any under-tongue painkiller. All I have to do to stop the pain is for one of the Cartilages to give way on me, sending me over, and land on my bum on the end of the arm of the recliner, burst the haemorrhoids open, and the Anne Gyna pains will disappear? Wonderful! Hahaha!
A late morning shot from earlier. The sun is beaming over the hill from behind the flats. Hello, another summoning from the innards. Well, evacuation number two was almost a replica of evacuation number one. But there was no bleeding this time, I’m glad to report. It’s time to get on the WP reader and see what’s available. Usually, some great poems and fantastic pictures are on there. I hope there is one tonight; I’ll return soon.
There wasn’t much on today, but what they were was great.
Time to get a meal. This may be one of the reasons for such a terrible night’s sleep. Along with and .
I put my head down, and it took a long time before I could nod off—then I kept waking up.
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – Good Run Continuing! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – POLITICAL, AGAIN – – The future of the world? A bloodstain, East, West, ne’er the twain… We can’t agree to help Ukraine, Redtop is back as President again… ::::: Oligarchs, a financial sovereign, People starving in Suriname, Chinese think war is a game… Prices and tax rises, gigantean. ::::: Starmer, EU, arcane, inhumane, Backhanders, threats to ducdame, Wars, death, it always the same, Do they resist, desist, complain or deign? ::::: Our planet should be a hallowed fane, We think more of money, financial gain… Help each other? Or eat our frangipane? What I write, I believe, is germane, ::::: People are so much more legerdemain, Proletariats can do nothing, we’re lurdane, To Politicians: life’s a profitable game, Russia, USA, China, all are Suzerain! ::::: Which leader is a Bonapartean? Which leader is a Hitlerarean? Which leader is a Robespierrean? Which leader is a Shakespearean? ::::: Do they know that life is not a video game? Blaming each other as the villain, What they say, they do not mean… Each leader just wants to be the top apogean! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – FURTHERMORE & NOT WITHSTANDING… A little serious, the above may seem, Peace is something that rulers cannot attain,
Leaders do not accept the blame…
Neither do they feel or show any shame,
They’re extraordinarily, transmundane,
Am I living in the spiritual realm?
Who’s controlling Earth’s helm?
Is the planet getting overwarm?
Will we live to earth unwarm?
Are Earth’s leaders part of a secret deern?
Nuclear, coal, hydrogen, nor windfarm,
Will stop doing Earth harm,
Will the promised saviour ever return,
Keir spouts primarily lies & aeriform,
I don’t think politicians are homoiotherm,
Their actions affect my neuroectoderm,
Labours mob, are worst, skelm! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – I discovered some snaps that I forgot to include in yesterday’s blog. Here they are. Better late than never. I managed to finish the longish Friday ode done before it got too busy. Seizures were again few & far between.
Afternoon views of the puffer clouds. I’m glad I caught the contrails.
Evening shots. Sunset. The high up moon.
Evening meal, well, the only meal. Mixed a tin of chilli with a ready-made chilli meal. Bread & Lemon cake. Slurp!
Not a lot of detail in depth today. It’s been a busy day, and I’m being told off. Hehe!
A smidge deeper shade today.
VISIT Not half!
Clock-Calender reset.
Daybreak shot.
Midday.
17:30hrs.
Notepad notes: Many are unreadable even with the spyglasses and reading glasses on. I’m assuming it’s always the same when it comes to teatime. It’s been like this for over a week now. I’ve partly guessed at some and left others out—not that many were on the pad. When things calmed down, I had a go at the word list replacement again. I wish I could rid myself of this addiction..
But it seems I’m obsessive. And I can’t!
Found the photos in the camera’s memory.
Multiple corrections were needed to balance things layout-wise before posting it on the blog. I got so angry with myself. This alone cost me well over an hour after I’d spent over two hours updating.
An undecipherable bit here…
Carers Marie and Selina made the first two calls. Marie changed the day catheter for me. There’s another unreadable bit here on the pad.
Phone Call from Social Services. She was not pleased with me. Sadly.
Chris did the teatime Carer call.
I realised that I’d not sorted out the catheter contraptions. Mind you, I knocked over the drawers in the kitchen, and it took me at least three hours to sort out and reorganize them.
The main problem was that I did not stop working on the stupid word list. I’m not sure while I am doing it. I don’t think I’ll live long enough to finish it. Haha!
Went on comments and WP Reader.
Then realised how hungry I was. I almost returned to recompiling the word list, but I stopped myself.
Must get something to eat now. I’ll catch up in the morning. (He says!)
I was getting the meal and about to photograph it when the landline chirped up. It was someone asking to speak to Helen. ‘No Helen’s here…’ – ‘Come on duffhead, don’t fart about!’ – ‘I think you’ve got the wrong number!’ – ‘Oh, shit, sorry midduck!’ So at least I knew it was someone from Nottingham when he used ‘midduck. ‘ Hehehe!
I forgot to take a photo of the meal: mashed potatoes, mackerel in BBQ sauce, beetroot, crispy onions, and garden peas. It was not as good as it sounded.
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – If I can if I can pass to pensioners some pain, Kill a farmer financially as I pass along, Kill some pensioners, although it’s wrong, Then my living shall not be in vain, Then my living shall not be in vain, Then my living shall not be in vain, Take backhanders & get given a gong, Then my living shall not be in vain. If I do my duty as an Oligarch ought, Make sure the war in Ukraine is still fought, If I can spread messages that Hitler taught, Then my living shall not be in vain Then my living shall not be in vain Then my living shall not be in vain If I can help somebody as I pass along And become a billionaire before too long… Then my living shall not be in vain! – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
0310hrs: I had an awakening like never before. I was instantly discombobulated. I knew I had to get up early for something… or did I? After a few minutes of trying to ascertain this seemingly critical mission was. I drifted back to sleep. That in itself was a rarity for me.
I woke up later, and the same thing happened. I was disorientated and perhaps getting a smidgeon psychotic over not recalling the urgent whatever it was! I nodded off a second time. I had a dream this time: I was in a canal at night, keeping afloat using a wooden door. The next awakening was back to the usual style… with some shooting up my right leg, while gave me few jerks to the right. As if orchestrated, the moment stopped and launched a short but violent attack to get my shoulder joint out of its socket. Amazingly, I went back to the land of nod again! I think it was 0400hrs when I stirred once more. It took great effort, but I forced myself to dismount the hospital bed, detach it, and empty it . The urine was the reddest it had been in the last week, scoring a 6 on the NHS scale.
I’d forgotten why I should have gotten up earlier, so I set about collating the contents of all four waste bins into one green one. I took it to the front door and added it to yesterday’s pile, which I had obviously also forgotten about taking to the waste chute. I was not with it, yet!
I went to the wet room to get the medicationalisationgs and ablutionings done. There are usually calls for the to be used, but not this morning. There were no signs or signals from the innards. So, I got the teggies done. Then started to shave. Four cuts, all tiny ones, twice I dropped a razor, I knocked over the and dropped the can of shaving foam. Removed the plates of meat (feet) from the bowl of water, and had a good body scrub, and a gentler cleaning of the more delicate parts. I dried off and tackled the areas in need of medicationalising. As is typical, they only caused pain, and I was puzzled that there was no need for them to be utilised. I did the other four areas and got the olive oil in the ears for the last task. No shower was taken this morning, but I did make an effort on the Porcelain Throne—a great effort. I had a go on the crossword book, but I had no success with that or encouraging the concrete torpedo to exit. It’ll come when it’s ready.
I veered of track, not that I knew what the track was anyway, and before getting dressed, I went to look at the prescriptions, which would last me until the next delivery. I was none the wiser after fifteen minutes of Arithmaphobia-driven struggling. It is very embarrassing to have this problem.
Finally, I got to the computer and adjusted the clock calendar on the desk. I then started on finishing yesterday’s blog and posted it off to WP.
The caregiver, Same, came at about 0830 hrs. She sorted the medications and put on my diabetic socks. She said that the warfarin tablets should last me until the next delivery.
I went on email and one from the Catheter deliverer. It is coming today. Unfortunately, I may have to leave the blog tomorrow to see if I can do a cartoon and ode. Because I’ve a mammoth job on Friday. I must find and sort the different catheter supplies and store them separately but in the same room. This is going to be a most-of-the-day job for me. I need lots of breaks, the Seizures, back pain, Brenda, Anne Gyna, and Gladis Glaucoma to be kind to me. Ah, that’s why I wanted to get up early, in case they were delivered early and I could make a start on them... But they weren’t, so that’s that!
The Catheter contraptions box was delivered.
A big job for me to sort out tomorrow.
Getting dark already. Took these shots from the kitchen window.
Getting on now. I’ll make a ready meal, methinks.
I added a can of cheap chilli to a ready-made chilli con carne meal. Bread and a lemon cake to boot!
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – May I wish everyone a Great Day! Not Pensioner-Killer Herr Starmer. Oh, na!
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SUGAR!I’ve missed some photos! I’ll put them on tomorrow’s blog. Danged Cognitive Impairment Iris!
